Infertility

I have to admit that over the past few months, I've been amazed at just how many people are opening up and sharing their stories about Infertility. It's one of those things that's just been kept quiet for so long and largely acknowledged as something that should be considered personal and consequently kept quiet.

I'm really proud of the ladies that are throwing that idea out and opening up to share a raw and difficult truth. It's particularly impressive because it provides hope and support to countless women and couples out there that are currently on the same journey. The Fertility Society of Australia have released statistics that show that 1 of every 6 couples in Australia are affected by Infertility. With a population of over 22 million, that's equates a considerably large number. Support is something that should be embraced and encouraged. It's hard. The whole journey is hard. But no one talks to each other about it.

I try and share our infertility journey with my family and friends pretty openly, but still, a lot of those people don't know what to do or say when the conversation comes up. I've noticed that if I post something on social media about being upset, very few will speak to me directly. I usually just get questioned by my mother or sister a few days later because someone has asked them if I'm ok. Yet if I post something about fitness, I get a bunch of likes and a number of supportive "Good on you" type comments.

In my personal experience, I get frustrated easily with my friends and family when they make comments like "enough already" or "I get it, it sucks". It's almost like they think that I talk about it because I like to hear the sound of my voice. I'm very aware that I can often seem like a broken record, but it's because I'm hurting and I need to get it out. Sometimes I need to say that same thing 20 different ways to convince myself that it's ok to feel what I'm feeling. There are A LOT of feelings that make their way through my head, and sometimes I need to know that I'm not crazy and that it's normal to feel the way I do.

You're not going to see my story up here any time soon. I can openly admit that I'm not even close to ready to share it. I don't think I could even write it let alone post it online for people to potentially see. One day I will, but todays not that day.